I joined the SNP in 2007. I joined for the same reason most people join a political party, the party’s vision, values, and, principles. To this date I still believe Scotland could and should be an independent country.
For years I pounded the streets, delivered leaflets, chapped doors, stood at polling stations, and, even became an unpaid call centre worker (only for campaigns). Today, however, I have given up my activism. Activism is for the young and the committed. Am nether.
I remember my first SNP conference in 2007/08 Alex Salmond, said something like “I heard a rumour. I think we win the election”. I grinned, like a child in a toy shop. I worked hard to win that election. I worked just as hard for years after that. I attended annual conferences, councils and branch meetings. I even joined a community council and community reference group, in the hope of becoming an SNP councillor.
By 2011 though the highlight of the national conference, was the fringe events. Talking to my third-sector colleagues. And, finding out more about the wider sector. From 2011, forward, keynote speeches had become like a pantomime to see who could do the best impression of Bill Murray, in the movie groundhog day. I could have given most of the speeches myself. All that would have been required was to plagiarise last year’s speech. I was done. Burnout is real.
I decided to focus on my third-sector work (voluntary). While returning to university to do my second undergraduate degree. I returned briefly to activism for cameos in the Scottish Independence referendum-2014. And the Referendum to leave the European Union-2016. Cameos’ is all they were. By 2017 I had- note, the choice of the word had- given up on party politics. I wanted no part of the civil war. A civil war that takes place on my Facebook feed daily. Things could be so different if either the 2014 or 2016 vote had gone differently.
I was out of party politics (though still hold membership). I was on the people-powered health and well-being reference group. Health and Social Care Alliance Scotland’s interface to The Public Bodies (Joint Working) (Scotland) Act and Inclusion Scotland’s sub-board on policy. By 2018 I was one module away from completing my Politics, Philosophy and Economics undergraduate degree at the Open University. When the opportunity to work on a community development programme in South Africa came up, I jumped at the chance. The jigsaw was almost complete all I had to do was pass DD309 Doing Economics. When it comes to Doing Economics Truss me not Liz.

I just opened book one. Can you guess what the first topic is of DD309: Doing Economics? You really cannot make this up. The first topic in book one of DD309: Doing Economics, is Market liberalisation, inequality and financial crisis. If Liz Truss wants my copy of DD309: Doing Economics she can have it. though she no longer requires it, does she?
Upon completing my BA (Hons) in Politics, Philosophy and Economics at the Open University I had a strange desire to do a Masters’s degree. The MSc in Social Innovation looked to be a perfect choice. Glasgow Caledonian University was my first University back in 2001. Returning in 2019 was like a homecoming for me. And on completion of my MSc in 2021, I became a real alumnus. With all the powers and responsibilities that go with being an alumnus. There is one very small problem though. It is 2022, almost 2023 and I have still not used any of my knowledge and experience to achieve meaningful work. Yes, my colleague and I are working on setting up a social enterprise. A-LEAF is still nothing more than a detailed plan. And that brings me to the conundrum I face on Thursday 20 October 2022.
By definition, companies limited by guarantee must be apolitical. The funny thing is when I woke up this morning. This thought never entered my head. I have the shambolic state affairs at Westminster for planting this seed of thought in my head. At 14:25 on 20 October 2022, I received an email from my SNP branch organiser, the email was a call for activists As I said above I gave up on activism, and am burned out. Additionally, A-LEAF’s principles, values and, vision is to empower the most marginalised citizens in Scottish communities.
Can I be considering putting my black a yellow rosette back on after everything I said in this blog? I think I am. However, as a co-founding member of A-LEAF, an apolitical social enterprise. There must be a conflict of interest. Yes, there is. A large conflict of interest. Here is the thing though, if I am to come off the political party bench. It will be to fight for a first-team place. What does that mean for A-LEAF? The wider question is: are my principles comparable with party politics anymore?
I caught a bit of BBC question time. The impression I got from the panel, is not one person is willing to take any leadership responsibility . As I said to a friend in the gym today. Yes, I have studied DD209-Running the Economy and DD309- Doing Economics, I still consider my knowledge, basic.
[T]he inadequacy of policy is something that should bother economists greatly … For times of crisis are when economists are most needed. If they cannot get their advice accepted in the clinch – or, worse yet, if they have no useful advice to offer – the whole enterprise of economic scholarship has failed in its most essential duty
And that is, of course, what has just happened [with the crisis starting in 2008]
Krugman, 2012 cited in Santos & Wuyts 2013, p.5
It looks to me. Someone with a basic understanding of economics. That what we should do- when I say “we”, I mean the shambolic Tory Government. Is to appoint a PM with a basic understanding of economics. If you cannot find someone in the House of Commons. Find someone in the House of Lords. At least one Lord will work for their £300 a day pay.

On reflection on today’s events, the question I need to ask myself is. What is the most important thing to me, having the ability to influence Government policy from the outside- as part of the third sector. Or from the inside as an SNP activist and a paid member of the Government? I guess the final question I should ask the UK and Scottish Government ministers, is this. Are the third and fourth sectors sustainable?
If the economic answer is no, the Third and Fourth sectors are not sustainable. Then surely the apolitical is political policy.






